A GOODBYE LETTER TO MY AFFAIR

I love you so much! I love that you are always there for me. When I’m happy you celebrate with me. When I am sad, you cry with me. When I’m angry you vent with me. When I feel empty inside, you fill me up. You bring me closer to my friends & family because everyone wants to be with you. I want to be with you. I chase you down & stalk you all the time. I look for you everywhere, everyday. In fact, I plan my days around you. I love that you come in different forms at different times; sometimes you are light & airy, other times you are heavy & comforting. I love that you change with the seasons & support all of my feelings. I love that you never leave me. I can always take you with me & count on you to give me immediate gratification. I don’t want to leave you because there is so much to love about you but I have to. Staying with you is costing me my life. While I love all these things about you, I hate that loving you exhausts me physically, mentally, & emotionally. My body is in pain when I give in to loving you. The more we are together, the more my lower back hurts, I have pain running down my leg, my right side feels like it’s going to explode, I get headaches, my feet ache, I get overly emotional, & extremely exhausted. These things prevent me from being my best not only for myself but for my kids. You make me unable to do the things I want with them & live an active lifestyle & I feel guilt & shame because I’m always choosing you over them. It’s so frustrating that loving you is even an option for me, but I struggle with it everyday. I want you to be around without any of these consequences, but it’s just not possible which is why I have to say good-bye. My family is more important to me than you. I know we will still see each other often, but I will be doing my best to stay away. I’ll miss you more than you miss me but I have to replace you. I know you understand & don’t hold it against me. I also know you’ll be there for me if ever I want to come back. Thank you for all that you have done for me. (OMG I really am in a toxic relationship! Who thanks someone for doing this much bad in their life?!) I won’t miss you (I totally will), I don’t like you (I totally love you), & I never want to see you again (I want you right now). 😡😠 (INSERT SCREAM!!!!!) Good-bye white flour carbs & sugar. Thank you for always being there, but I have to let you go.